14th
About caring what people think
Yesterday the 3angryvaginalstooges dude responded to something I wrote about “not caring what people think”. I think he misinterpreted me. Of course I care to some extent what people think of me. I am a woman and have all those normal body issues that most women have. I care what people think about the work I do. I care what my parents think of me. What I dont care about is what people think of my personality or what I say. I only filter myself around children and the elderly because let’s face it, it’s not appropriate to discuss assholes and dicks in the presence of the young and very old. Let the old die in peace and let the children remain innocent and figure all this out one one night stand at a time.
I briefly dated a guy who was in his early 30’s and very shy/quiet. Of course this could not work with me. At the end of the short lived fling I asked him “why dont you talk, are you afraid of what people will think of you?”. He replied “yes”. I can not even imagine how awful it must be to think twice about everything that comes out of your mouth. Half of what I say is completely retarded, but I say it…regardless. That is the point I was trying to make, you pussy. (reveal yourself to avoid future pussy comments)
Considering that I have had a real shitty day, one in which every ounce of vitriol I posses has been drained from my veins, I will reply sincerely and not be a wise ass. That & I just murdered what little funny I have in me with a couple of Vicodin and a double Jameson.
I did misinterpret you. Slightly. But certainly not in any disparaging or negative way. Think about your original statement, “…but I am a scary broad who says whatever the hell she wants without giving a shit about what people think of her, and that is very freeing.” That’s a little different than what you say above, ”Half of what I say is completely retarded, but I say it…regardless”. I am not one to argue over semantics. I was more or less using what you blogged as a springboard to say there are too many people who throw the “I don’t give a shit what people think of me” line around. Especially on the internet.
What I should have focused on more (no not your pouty lip contest with JA, who is the anti-antikris) was when I said you have an acute level of self awareness. That’s a compliment considering the only thing I know about you is from your blog. To be able to let people see what runs through your head with only the thinnest of filters is a pretty fuckin’ cool quality to have. That’s why I like reading, and now just recently reblogging, you and the other two AVS’s. I know the give and take is going to be there. An honest, no holds barred, give and take. Not some fake shit. I’ll defer criticism of the, “pretend I am always in front of a camera”, bullshit, lifecasting bloggers to the masses. That shit is way too easy. Of course I am not always going to agree with everything I read from you, but so what? Fuck it. THEN I would really be a pussy. A boring, ”trying to get in your pants at a meetup” one at that.
Now if you really want me to ”reveal myself” I will. Just on my own terms & not because you call me a pussy. Please. I don’t give a shit what you think of me & what I say or write. Sound like a familiar theme? Plus I have read you enough to know that pussy is a term of endearment coming from you. Thanks
